Shit...

Not the most catchy of titles, but none the less this is it...
Some people will percieve this to be "bad shit" but I know that this in incorrect. Shit can be either good or bad, full of emotion or full of nothing...shit can be percieved to be great shit or even bad shit...

so with this in mind lets welcome "shit"...

My name is Julie and I am at a stage in my life when I need to remove the clutter or as I like to refer to it as shit in my life. i am steadily progressing through the house removing the things we gather in the hope that one day they will make our life better, funner or just more exciting because in my 40's I know that it is the inside of a person that makes the fun, excitement and joy in life not the amount of items you possess or more rightly so, possess you.

Along this journey, I have realised that the most important clutter aka shit is holding me back is what is in my mind. So many things left unsaid, left undone and pushed to the back of the deep recesses of my mind...
This writing will be my way to start to unlock these packages in my mind and begin the process of dealing with them.

I will come up with a word each day that I will analyse in my mind and how it references to me...
With these references and discussion, I hope to be able to put to bed some ideas in my head that bounce constantly around, never letting up or going away...

so today's word is SHIT.
Not surprisingly, I don't consider this a negative word. To me it is a descriptive work on stuff or things. It can be used in so many different ways like "get your shit together" or "grab your shit we are going" or "what is this shit"...all of these expressions I use regularly. I hae hused shit in a sad way though...while generally feeling out of control in times and places so will yell "shit" or even "shit Lord what is happening".

I hope to be able to use a moment in my life to analyse these words but for today, I don't have a moment to share...this is just the beginning and I only want to be able to do this will no pressure just releasing the valve of my mind with words that need escape.

I wrote this passage on the 8th April 2010. I cringe a little at it now as I try really hard to not use the word "shit" in the same context. Since writing this, I have matured in my thoughts and I would like to think that now, I attempt to find better words to describe my thoughts and feelings. I have come a long way since this first article was written. I know that my thoughts are dependent on my feelings, however, I really have tried to empower myself to move beyond the first physical feelings that come with thoughts. I have always been quick to dismiss something that I considered could possible hurt me. I am constantly working on this now.
I have learnt how quickly we assume too much by the power of our thoughts. Sometimes it is much more valuable to just listen and ponder, not immediately evaluate and determine a possible solution.

Unfortunately, I still have way too much stuff in my house. I have deemed 2011 the year where I attempt to buy as little as possible brand new and if I do have to purchase something then it is to be used immediately and not be placed in the cupboard. If its destiny is to be in the cupboard then it was not a necessary purchase. I need to shop from my own home for everything.

The sin of gluttony is my most undesirable quality. I have gluttony for so many things in my life. It is like a competition...like I am trying to be the winner by owning the most stuff. It doesn't make me happy, in fact feels a lot like a noose around my neck, so I will be working on Gluttony as my project for 2011.

Anyone feel like coming for the ride?