Self-forgiveness

In our lives it is so hard to forgive. We can learn to forgive others over time or with the best intentions we can make the effort to forgive those who have hurt us....but in reality the only person we should make the concerted effort to forgive is our self. There is only one true person in your world and that is yourself. If we are unable to forgive our self, then we are continually undermining the one person who is important.

I am extremely hard on myself. I judge myself harder than anyone could or would ever judge me. I am judge and jury and show no mercy.

I am not like this with other people. I do show mercy many times to other people, sometimes it can be said to my own detriment, yet I never feel myself worthy enough to return this kindness to myself. I know that this stems from my deep seating thinking that I am not worthy enough of forgiveness...like my story is so bad that someone would sit in judgement and be shocked at the words coming out of my mouth. I know that this is not true, but this can be the level of judgement I bestow upon myself.

I am one of the kindest people I know. I continually try to look for the good in people. I continually believe that people are ultimately good and this goodness will shine through. I do not want to be the negative person who thinks that everyone and everything is out to get them. I do believe in the cosmic exchange and know that what I put out there will come back to me 10 fold.
Because I know this, I do really try to never put out bad things...I do not want to attract sickness disease and sadness, so I do not try to allow myself to dwell on them. I do give myself 24 hours to acknowledge these feelings, but dwelling any longer gives me an excuse, a reason to be negative and I will not allow these feelings.

I now have to trust myself to forgive myself. For everything. From now on, all negative thoughts that come into my mind, I will forgive. I will acknowledge and then forgive. Self forgiveness means I will have the ability to forgive others.

This will allow me to continue the journey of Tri Hita Karana - The Balance of Life.