I will be doing two posts today as I want to record the "old" of me for they deserve to be spoken but I want to welcome the new as snippets taken from the book titled "Simple Abundance - A Day Book of Comfort and Joy". A beautiful book.
Purple...
The first thing to come into my mind with this word is the move The Colour Purple with Whoopi Goldberg. It is a movie about racial discrimination. I have wondered why I thought of this word whether it was for the actual colour purple which is not a favourite of mine or if there is a deeper meaning.
Purple is a colour that I do not work with very much when I am making products to sell. I can never understand why this is so, but the item will remain unsold year after year. It will be picked up, held, soothed but returned as never quiet good enough. Nothing wrong with the product, just does not appeal to the mass public for sale. is this how I view myself? Never quite good enough for sale. never quite valued highly. Happy if someone has to have the purple product, but not something that they necessarily want. I think of myself like the doll that sits on the shelf. Lovely to look at, but no one really loves her enough to take her with them. They are happy to have her sitting on the shelf as there is merits in keeping her, but just a doll that does not need a whole lot of love.
And yet, the purple word evoked the title of the movie. The Colour Purple is my first strong view on this word for today. This movie is about racial discrimination and I do feel discrimination. I am judged by the actions of others and even though I am not guilty of these so call injustices, I am held accountable. I am trapped by these emotions as outwardly I can dismiss such negativity but inwardly, these eat away at my confidence little by little. Most often these discriminations are nothing that I know about, only by rejection am I made aware that there is a problem.
Purple is a rich colour, full of prestige and glamour. It is a colour of royalty and used in the most formal ceremonies. Maybe it is high time that I wrap myself in a blanket of purple to learn how to hold myself in high esteem. Purple can give me an edge in prestige because I am precious and worthy of being held in high esteem and for too long I have allowed the discrimination's of purple to continually drag me down to the point that I do not value myself.
After many years of constantly doubting myself, you begin to believe the non-sensical rubbish that people feel is their right to throw at you. My magic purple blanket will help me deflect these barbs of negativity so I can continue on my journey of self discovery.
Written 11th April 2010.
This is so negative and sad. I was preparing for battle just as a warrior would wrap themselves in shields to protect their hearts, I was attempting to wrap myself in a purple cloak to shield these barbs away. I do not feel like that anymore. Negativity breeds negativity and I only want Love and Light to be in my life.
When I open the Day Book today, today's verse is Beauty: Opening our eyes to the beauty that surrounds us.
This is the path I am on and will continue on. Others have their rights to negativity and sadness, but not I. No longer will I allow feelings of hurt, betrayal to wear me down. They are just like clouds in the sky floating past. I will acknowledge them and then just watch them sail by. Just because these obstacles come to me, this does not mean I have to allow them into me. I can acknowledge and then release. I am not going to allow myself to dwell on negativity in any form.
Simple Abundance reminds us to be grateful for all the lessons that pass by in our life for it is with these lessons that we learn how to become to truly appreciate all the Love and Light in our life. I believe that we all come to a point in our life where we look at all that we have, wonder about all that we want and then realise that we have always had everything that we need right here with us the whole time. I have always been searching for the next thing that would make me happy, make me be the person I thought I had to be, yet I have always been there.
Hidden by a mountain of things that I deemed necessary to be the person I was chasing...
I will release these things. I no longer need them.
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