Loving One Self.

I am reminded today by the start of a cold and an extremely sore throat that I am not loving myself. On the surface I feel as if I am, but with these "dis -eases" I know that I am not. How do you love yourself? Is it a learned thing? Are some people born with this inate ability to love oneself so much that they never struggle with this thought/action? I have not been born with this knowledge. I have never really learnt this knowledge either. To love someone else, you have to love yourself first. I understand the concept, I do. I never have felt comfortable with it though. This is my heart chakra and is the chakra that I keep coming back to in meditations, thoughts, purchases and sicknesses. The time has come that I really learn to love myself. I have been doing baby steps, like makeup, clothes, keeping my house tidy, booking regular massages, but now it is time to work on my internal thoughts.

I have heard recently by a well known TV presenter the following thoughts. She states "Your thoughts become your words, your words become your actions and your actions become your life." How profound is that? I have always struggled with myself/love with the very first connection....your thoughts become your words....I have outwardly tried to show I love myself with artificial actions, but the deepest thoughts stayed the same...and co-incidentally so did my weight....and then I would wonder why I kept being shown that I wasn't loving myself. I truly wasn't inside me...

I am now learning that for anything else to really be true for me, then the one simple step of loving myself has to be first and foremost before anything else. I know and I am now ready.

I have been given a book to read and work through...LOVING WHAT IS by Byron Katie. It is time - I am ready to do The Work that is now required. I am truly ready for this opening of my heart chakra with the knowledge that I will love myself in the deepest way possible. Thank you One and All for showing me the way on how to learn to love me. I have been asking for signs as to how to do this. I knew that I had to do it, just didn't know how. I do now.

The journey will be sad/confronting/enlightening but so enjoyable. I will learn things that I knew but would never accept and for this wonderful gift I am thankful.

Tri Hita Karana...