Grieving...

Today I have been clearing out all the things from my life that I no longer need. I have been doing this for 3 days now just going through my one room which is really me. It has been my sewing room for so long now, but now it has become my studio. No longer is it to be the junk room of the house nor just my sewing area. I will still use it as I have done before, like doing the ironing, scrapbooking etc, but I have added the new direction of my life. I have included an area which will be just for my holistic learning and practices.

I have spent time going through everything. The big and the little have all had my undivided attention. I have considered whether each thing is relevant in my life....be it useful or beautiful, but to qualify to stay, it must be used. Not just there in case it may be needed in the future. I do have a few things which are on "borrowed time". If they get used soon, they will stay otherwise they will go and bless someone else.

So even though it has been cathartic going through everything for this new beginning, I have been grieving for the things of my past. Memories of days gone by, of children in younger times, the hopes and dreams of my past. Some have been born, others, sadly not.

It is a surreal moment in our lives when we realise that we are not infinite and we do have a life time span. I know that I will live for many more years, but life just goes by so quickly and to go through everything just as you would in a deceased estate, can be very confronting.

There is a popular post around at the moment which advises that everything that we need can be fitted into one box. I mentally picture a monk or even a nun who also live with very little. The things that they do keep/have are valuable for exactly as they are. Not something which needs to be made, used, or kept just in case. I feel a strong need to look at everything I have with this in mind...it must be something valuable. Beauty for me can be valuable, but mostly, I will continue to look at things with the mindset of it must be valuable.

Once I have finished this room, my studio, and in particular the new area for my holistic healing, I will be looking at the remainder of the house.

It will be a healing year for me this year....in readiness for me to continue in my journey of becoming a Holistic Healer.