just type...that is what I am getting told...so type I will. Close your eyes, it will be easier so I have and then I will just let my fingers type. With our eyes shut we can alter the projected view of ourself. We are no longer who we see in the mirror but we become the vision in our minds eye. Is this the vision I am happy to see or do I want to be something else. This is the journey I am working on. The thinking of what I am wanting, where I am heading and what will remain as I venture forth. My hip is aching. My right hip. Fear of moving forward in the physical. So what is it I am scared about. Fear of failure is the first thing I think of. Of being rejected yet again......it is only me who can reject myself and I won't this time.
Why is it we feel compelled to hold onto the old memories and hurts that do not help only serving to bring us back to where we came from. The stories have to be rewritten. The memories have to be altered. Painful events of our past only need to be remembered as a page in our book, and to turn the page and begin new chapters. The hurts were events we were to experience and learn, grow and become better people from. That is really hard when you have hurt people by doing the stupidest thing. Things that haunt your soul. Forgiveness is the hardest thing, and then to move on requires an inornate amount of strength. I am learning that strength and to the people I have hurt, I am my most humblest as I ask for forgiveness.
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